Yes I am happy for her, but a few weeks ago, she was worried and said to me..."God I hope I'm not pregnant." I was there for her 100%, but I had a hard time relating to her. I understood her fear...she already has a child who just turned 1 and if she is pregnant, then she'll have two children under the age of 2! As it turns out, she is pregnant. She shared the news with me a few weeks after that conversation. As much as I rationalize in my head, I still couldn’t help but feel a twinge of jealousy, because I know that she and her husband we not even trying.
My friends and family try hard to understand, but this is the first time in my life where I am learning, that no matter how hard they try…they just don’t get it. It’s not their fault, it’s just one of those situations where you have to experience it to truly know what is going on in my heart and my head. The advice that people give me sounds rash and harsh, while at the same time I know they are simply trying to be comforting. What they don’t understand is that in their attempt to comfort me, their statements are riddled with conclusions…Have you thought about adoption? Have you considered surrogacy? (You’re assuming I can’t get pregnant!) When talking about IVF, I share that I am extremely nervous about having twins…they never ask me why that makes me so scared, they ALL respond with this: “At least you will get it all over with at once!” Is that supposed to be comforting? Hello! I have never been pregnant! Oh and by the way, I’m not having kids to get it over with!
So this is the reason for my blog. I would like to connect with others who are going through the same experience. I hope not only to help others, but to learn from them as well.